Sunday, March 23, 2008 Y

6:23 AM

For the last 2weeks,i feel like abt to go crazy alrdy..because of the many problems tat i've been facing. But i didnt..yeah thanks to my leader, Hui Jun..hhm,i think i'l just write Evyette cuz her English name sounds n looks cooler (easier to write). But be careful, she's..hhm,nvm..i still want my head intact to its right place =) Dun get me wrong, it just tat it's not the right thing to talk abt someone else + there isnt much to talk abt anyway .

I respect her vr much, vr grateful n thankful tat she's my leader.. The reason is because Mr Ariefin (myself) not an easy person to teach (can chck wif my mom if dont believe..hehe..). Im also SURPRISED when she or ppl say Ariefin is teachable. I wonder why..nono..i mean it must be because of HiM to place her under the authority over my life.. Really thank God for her to be my leader.

Wait,wait,i think i sidetrack quite a bit there. Bck to the main topic..cuz of the stress tat i had, i thought of goin to Heaven..Anyway, i went to talked to my leader over the phone..we talked,discussed, she gave me some advices..aft the conversation i had with her, i feel life is so beautiful like WoW,look!vr nice blue sky =) But,my hand was shaking a bit during the sharing i had with her (was it cuz of the presence of Holy Spirit or my hand just tired of holding the phone? Hhm,im not sure myself). One more thing,i hope my phone bill wont be too high at the end of the month. I mean i've been calling ppl here n there too.

Last time i didnt really like to giv ppl a call..u ask me to call tis person or tis person,i die die wont do it even if Evyette asked me..it was cuz.. ok,i call.. then?? I mean talk abt wat? how long i've to talk?(if the person vr talkative..good or bad?). But now,i see myself n say to myself..not bad Ariefin,yeah! Way to go man!..yep, i've changed littl by littl. Though there's a special case if talk to my opposite gender..vr stress man -.- (it's not like last time when i can only say 1 or 2 words).
Yep, so for the past few weeks..really really tough but i made it through with the help of HiM, Pst Kong, Evyette, Qiaofen n many others. Love all of them, love my CG s23, love n peace alwys! *S23,Evyette--5

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;

2:03 AM

Hhm..Since abt 3weeks ago,now my CG like to go Aljunied for fellowship. Well, i find it very good.. cuz every time we go there,we'll definitely walk here n there. I like it cuz i feel like we're going for an adventure n the environment closely like in Indo,where i used to live. To be honest, the environment sometimes makes me want to get into a fight. It's not tat im looking for trouble..but nvm,i guess im juz too stressed.

The problems come one after another..when i thought..ok good,one problem solved. The nxt thing i knw,2 more problems need to be solved. It's not tat i didnt try to get a help, but everybody seems vr busy n they hv their own problems too + they've tried but they also cant do anythg. The problem here is in order to solve these problems,they need to..hhm..i dont knw how to say.

But for me, wat i do is when i talk to someone, i try to show the unconditional love tat i learnt from HiM, find the 'core', live in truthfulness (open their hearts up by open yourself up first n speak with sincerity),n carry it out with the attitude of servanthood. Well, i just wanna say one thing..it wont alwys work the way u want to be all the time since human's brain is complex.

I really wanna thanks to Miss Jazlyn Chua or Qiaofen=) Because of her, through her, from her tat i learnt just a few meaningful things when we were still in the same 'family'. Then later on, this few things developed into countless great lessons tat i've been holding onto in my life n for the rest of my life.

Btw,i've nothg to hide to my leader(for reference,my leader is Hui Jun..hoho,know her?)..hhm,so yeah,just want to say tat she knows wat i know..hhm,yeah almost evrythg. *S23,Evyette--4

Labels: Aljunied + Seeking for a help / Offer a help

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;

Tuesday, March 4, 2008 Y

5:23 AM

I've heard someone said this bfr (not to me though), "Ignorant people are sure blissful".

For me, being observant quite a pain in the head..but i just cant help it. I mean there's nothing bad abt being observant,but it doesnt mean it's no good of being ignorant. Sometimes, for certain case in a certain situation you have to become ignorant as a result of you are being observant.
This is not going to get anywhere..haiz -_- Never mind

I dont knw if i can do somthg.. Im looking for somthg, or 'someone' which is needed, in order for me to do somthg special, somthg different. I want to do little little things for someone n anothr someone n anothr someone, could find somthg to be somebody.

*S23,EvyettE--3

Labels: Ignorant-Observant

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;

Monday, March 3, 2008 Y

2:03 PM

In my previous post,i did say i wanted to elaborate somthg..but aft second thought, i decided to just leave it as it is. The reason is simply because i couldnt find a way how to elaborate it.

On Monday (Feb 26th),early in the morning, ard 1.30am..i was vr tired, wanted to get some rest abt 3hrs bfr i continue to study. So,when i was trying to sleep i just couldnt sleep at all. I thought the reason behind was somthg like when parents lost their beloved child..I mean the anxiety, confused,worried..(maybe partly). But i found out the true reason when i woke up at 430am.. I saw so many stars spinning ard my head..yes,i was sick-.- I lost my appetite,headache,bodyache + heartache ( have u ever felt so miserable when u lost one of your dear family member? If u did,then you'll understand wat im talking abt ).

FAMILY is

A place where i share my joy, happiness, revelation (the good things) ; a place where i share my sadness, sufferings, problems (the bad things)..

A place where i learn from one another, i learn abt Trust, Truth, Unconditional Love..

A place where i found the meaning or purpose of my life, my Destiny, aft being reborn n received a New Life. All of this thanks to Him,my saviour.

Im really blessed because my first n second family are truly wonderful =)

*S23,EvyettE--2

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;